Last Saturday, I attended a workshop
run by Alexandra Pope and Sjanie Hugo Wurlitzer. The workshop was
about 'creating menstrual health' and as I have been reading The
Womans Quest workbook for the past 8 months, It seemed like a good
opportunity to meet the author and other women who were also
interested in the menstrual cycle's energies. I feel like I am a
world away from the state of mind I was in when I first contacted
Alexandra... a plea from a desperate woman, to someone who might be
able to understand what I was going through. We chatted via email, I
downloaded the thought provoking workbook, and joined her community
site.
I was around day 18 of my cycle, so
heading into unstable territory, so I arranged for my partner to
drive me to Fulham in London and get me to the venue. I don't cope
on trains and tubes very well, especially alone and in the second
half of my cycle.
The venue was beautiful. It looked
like a converted church and had the most beautiful stained glass rose
windows. Everyone was welcoming and open. It is always a daunting
thought, meeting lots of strangers all in one go, but there was a
lovely energy in the room, and as women do when they get together..
lots of chat and laughter. The whole building was beautiful, clean
and calming. As we moved into our work room, yet another stunning
stained glass mandala faced me.
The day consisted of a lot of chat and
discussion on the menstrual cycle and where we may have issues. We
explored the similarities between out menstrual phases and the
seasons experienced on the Earth. I am in my element with
correspondences and symbols, and loved widening my thoughts and
knowledge of this divine code.
Our inner Spring, is very similar to
our outer spring. This 'Springtime' represents pre-ovulation, when
the fog of our period lifts and our light and energy returns. Many
of us (PMDD sufferers) will call this 'one of our good weeks'. We
feel like ourselves again, we have energy, we want to get on with
life again. There is an innocence about this time, and it is a time
we should spend nurturing our ideas and making plans. New shoots are
growing, life is returning to the earth... and you.
Inner Summer relates to ovulation. The
Sun is high in the sky and everything is fertile and blooming. We
are 'out there'. We can be social, we can enjoy life. It is a time
for manifestation. Another 'good week' for many, although this too
can bring a difficult time for some.
If we are not fulfilling the
things we want (on the most basic bodily level this would be getting
pregnant), there becomes a fear of summer's end, of missing the
chance, of the wheel turning all to quickly.
Inner Autumn is pre-menstruation and is
when PMDD sufferers will hit the 'bad times'. Most will start losing
a grip on reality during this season. The Earth is retreating,
leaves are falling, the cold winds pick up. It is an unsettled and
unstable season, flitting from late balmy sunny afternoons and bright
crisp mornings, to stretches of dull grey rainy days, storms and more
rain. Our energy and flow begins to slow down, we get forgetful and
easy to enrage. Women with PMDD need to really try and understand
this season, and learn how to harvest it's fruits and develop and
awareness of what is really going on inside them.
Our inner Winter is connected to our
menstruation. Our whole month is connected to how well we bleed and
deal with our period. Just think to days gone by, when we had to
harvest as much as we could all year to just survive the winter. If
we are careful and look after ourselves, we will reach the Spring.
If we have been smart and resourceful, we may even reach Spring still
strong and healthy, rather than starving and weak. If you allow the
natural need to retreat and hibernate, if you honour and listen to
what your body needs, if you get enough sleep and good food, you have
the potential to reach the Spring, empowered, full of anticipation
rather than dis-empowered, full of guilt and stress.
There is much more I could say about
each season, in fact, I could write a couple of posts on each one!!
So I will leave that there for you to digest and contemplate. I am
obviously describing a cycle, but everyone's cycle may be different.
They will most certainly feel different things at different times and
for different reasons. Interpretation comes down to the individual,
and you cannot forget the different life stories of each individual
and their own reactions to each season.
How do you feel about each
season? Do you have favourites? How do you cope with each season?
As above, so below, As within, As
without – A Witches saying.
What goes on outside us, is often a
mirror to what is going on inside us. I'm sure it's no coincidence
that I have a hard time through my inner Winters, and also suffer
from SAD during the outer Winter. Maybe if I learn how to love the
inner Wintertime, I will also heal my SAD?
We followed a guided meditation spoken
by Sjanie, and stopped periodically (through each season) to write
and draw down our visions. We discussed with partners our
experiences and feelings.
We then got into groups and each
discussed a season. The rest of the day was unpacking all the words
we had thought of to describe how we feel about each season. It was
very enlightening and heart warming to hear other people's stories
and to feel so connected to other women. It was also re-assuring and
exciting that other women understood these concepts and each and
every one of us felt that we all knew it anyway.
We have all had
this potential, this inner knowledge, like a glimmering, ornate, gold
box full of our inner strength and power, full of the words of our
ancestors and subconscious. Alexandra and Sjanie gave us all the key
to unlocking this magic box, and I'm sure that every woman there will
be sharing this knowledge with anyone who would care to listen for
many years to come.
There is a revelation to be had in
exploring these ideas, there is a REVOLUTION to be had by every
woman, to educate, to share the knowledge, to break down all the
stigma and hatred that has been pointed at our menstrual cycles. To
reclaim our menstruation as our sacred time, to be allowed to become
whole, rather than living the half life we are all supposed to live
because it is socially acceptable. As a woman, I will demand
respect, from myself and others during my bleed. It is a magical
thing to bleed as we do every month. We get a new chance every month
to heal and learn and understand ourselves.
If you are interested in The Woman's
Quest and Alexandra Pope's and Sjanie Hugo Wurlitzer's work, please visit these websites:
